Do not beat yourself up for what you have done or not done. You are who you are and that is that. You are ever changing and ever evolving. Do not get bogged down in the mud of the past. Do not go back and lick up the vomit. Try and clear your mind and body, feed the soul, clear the air. Many times we get trapped in thinking we are bad people. The fact is that we are energy beings, particles dancing. Do not be fooled by this self. This illusive thing we call existence. Reality is a very complex thing and hard to fathom. Take time to ponder these things and seek wisdom and counsel.